Here's the truth;
I never felt more alone then I feel now.

Why you may ask?
More of my friends are joining the tight knit circle of partying and all the drugs and alcohol that goes along with it.

As you can tell this only applies to my friends that know me personally and not just through the internet (gomen) but no it doesn't mean I don't still love you guys and we're no longer friends it just means I don't share the same views as you because they go against my morols. But the constant talk about that kind of stuff is frankly upsetting me.

If you do that stuff then its you and your other friends' business and I don't need to know the details of what you did, where, how and who with. The more details I hear the more I get upset because I'm so worried about you.

I don't mean to sound selfish or pushy but here's a simple truth, I have depression and around this time of year I'm really prone to having relapses and panic attacks so I don't need any of this to push me over the edge. I doubt any one wants to make me fall over the edge.

In any case if you ever need advice and willing to take it I am more then happy to give it to you. Just come to me and I'm happy to talk to you. Until then I will try to stick around positive influences and march to the beat of my own drum

Even if it means doing so alone.

Though I may add I have quite a bit of friends who share the same views, and if I didn't have you I would frankly go insane.... the bad kind I mean.